i had this huge rant typed out to post but it was so negative i erased it. I'm sad and homesick today so everything i type seems to turn out bitter and angry and thats not really how i feel. I'm trying to go through all the tubs of craft stuff becky uncovered in her cleaning before she left. there are some good things but theres also a ton of junk that just has to be thrown away. it makes my heart very heavy to have to throw away so much stuff in a country where people need so much.
im not a huge fan of christian music but theres this song called Hosanna we used to sing in chapel a lot. theres one line i hear on repeat in my head everyday:
"break my heart for what breaks yours"
today my heart is very broken for the things God' heart breaks for. there is a lot of hope in this country but i think God's heart doesn't just break for the people who have so little. it also breaks for the people who have so much and don't use it to help others. americans live such blinded, consumer driven lives. the majority are missing the whole "love they neighbor" thing. God's heart breaks for them, too. and so does mine.
the girls will be awake from their afternoon nap in a few minutes and i can't wait to see their pretty smiles. they make all the sadness so well worth it.
What has you so down today?
ReplyDeletekate and becky left this morning so shara &paul went to the airport and i was home alone for a while. i started cleaning and organizing my craft stuff and I'm really overwhelmed. but paul &i went to a tent city and walked around the neighborhood &sat on the roof for a while so i feel a lot better.
ReplyDeleteWhew, finally got something to post for my baby. Just know that we can tell by the photos that you are having better weather there than here - gray skies and rain...ugh! Are the bugs still way bad? We are gonna have to load you up on mosquito repellant for your return.
ReplyDeleteThe photo's of those smiling children are priceless! You are doing a great job and sharing your time and your smiles are wonderful. I can only imagine the rate at which they tore from one color to the next and were then finished...that's children:) How are your language skills coming? Does the Hatian/English dictionary help?
Thank you so very much for opening your mind and heart to God to be in a place on earth where His love is needed so much. Your kindness and desire to make this world a better place, putting those desires in motion, makes you such an outstanding young lady, giving up all that is comfortable to serve, you go girl!!!! I wouldn't mind sitting on the roof watching the sun go down myself, sounds very peaceful.
Keep the blogging coming, we are loving hearing from you and what you are doing. We are praying for strength and courage for you - keep up the good work and know we are right here cheering you on. Till the next blog, take care! I love you more than words can tell.
Mom
haha i knew you could do it! I'm sorry its rainy and gross there. I'm not looking forward to leaving the sunshine for that. bugs are still pretty bad but i think i have a good system going to keep them off of me. but i do need more bug spray &some batteries/refill packets for my fan.
ReplyDeletetheir smiles make my day! aren't they so cute?? my language skills are pretty much at a stand still. I've learned a few new words but the older girls are still kind of shy around me and the little girls don't speak much english. it will just take a little time i think. ill have to work hard at it while I'm home &maybe get one of our guards to help me when i come back.
you could always come down in the summer as a work team and see what sitting on the roof is like! out of all the places I've seen in my travels, it easily makes my top three. lets FaceTime on sunday again? or even before if you want just tell me when! i love you mommy!
Definitely Face Time on Sunday!!
ReplyDeletelookin' forward to it, actually...