i just dumped out around 160 cans of expired pediasure and powder formula. I'm not sure what makes me more sad: that something so useful had to be wasted or that i had to pour it all down the toilet so some desperate mother somewhere wouldn't pull it out of the trash and use it. it makes me sad to have to throw away so much in a place where some people have so little. however, i guess its better to throw it away than to have sick babies everywhere.
everyone here was really down yesterday. i think it was the weather. it rained for about 10 minutes last night but it was cloudy &overcast before hand. i think people can sense the change before it happens &it messes with our mood. theres also a cold going around.
I'm going to try out one last project tonight with the older girls and middle girls. but first its nap time and hopefully a little play time in there somewhere. its my last night here so I'm cooking &hopefully sitting on the roof with paul and shara all night. not sure I'm ready to go home. I've been here for two weeks but it feels more like just a few days. i sort of have a routine here and i like it. this just seems to be right.
"but the fruit of the spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. against such things there is no law." Galatians 5:22-23
this is the verse the middle girls learned last night. but I'm learning it too. the only difference is I'm trying to learn it through experience. the older i get the less likely i am to listen to other people's advice. its immature of me to live that way but I'm learning so much more by figuring it out on my own. maybe we should all try to learn a little more than we teach. maybe some things just can't be taught. either way, i want the fruits of the spirit to BE my life. those things grow more and more important to me, especially in this place at this time. i want to see love, joy, peace, etc. in every moment, good or bad. its not always easy, but its always worth it.
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